KELOIDS! FUCK THAT SHIT!

augh. visits...doctors visits make sick to my stomach. What is it called? White sindrome? I believe I have that hidious deseas. I get nervous. My heart beats out the walls. I cant seem to get a straight word out of my mouth (not that i've ever had). I cant seem to stand up straight (then again...haha). I sweat. I get hot. I just HATE it. It was one of those days today. I went to a plastic surgeon to get this hidious ugly nasty things behind my ears called Keloids. Its a type of scare also known as proud skin. Well, mind is effin proud because if effin huge! and I am no exadurating about it. you can ask anyone you know and they'll be like; "Damn why you got some testicles growing out of your ears!!"

Which, you'll be surprsied someone did metioned that to me last night. She happened to be a red head, about 5'5" 160 lbs (i'm just taking stabs at her physique...hope i dont say anything wrong!) and yeah comments like those tend to get me straight to da booty!

Anyhow, I had an apt like around 11 ish this morning...i got there a lil bit early...like around 45 mins early lol...thats so not me but i was there early...I got to see my doc's boobs. She was showing off her treated "proud skin" and she was showing how easy and non painful it is. NONPAINFUL MY FAGGOTY ASS!!! Just tell me if getting 25 shots on one ear and then 15 on the other isnt painful. I mean, you bleed! it itches! its burns! its HELL!

This all comes to teach me a lesson...some sorts of stupid fashion arent ment to be for me. This painful process of removing what used to be a Keloid and now its a tumor its total pain!

and yes. this is a bitchy blog!

i need attention, some love, some apethy, some sympathy?, something. to confort this annoying pain!

and just to think that I have at least six more months for this stupid process to keep up with.

i hate it.
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it

THE END.