COMMITMENT

I sat in my dark cold room feeling as if i was the only one to fill the shoes that fallow an empty road to nowhere. Well atleast if felt as if i was going nowhere then, When in all reality, I am going somewhere, I am doing something, and I'm deft becoming something in life. All this goals and planning for the future frightens me! I am so afraid of commitment, commiting my life to something that will last and be the same for the rest of my life? uh, yeah...it may be what everyone wants for them and I guess its a simple way of life its self, but its terrefying to me. I have lived life as every day were to be my last. living life to the fullest making the future what it is...the future...never to come back and never to revoke. The future, the same, as what it is...not here, non excistant, not to worry about. Its time! its time to move on, its time to grow up and face your fear.....commitment!

I also have tried to think and find childish foolish ways to stay. I want to find a good enough reason to not move. My mind goes blank...there isnt really anything academically for me here to stay here for. I did what i had to do. I am afraid that i will fail misserably and achieve what i have set myself for. I dont want to be pointed, made fun of, and be called a failure.

i'm sacred

i'm scared

i'm scared

whats done is done...whats said its said...and grow up I must...

wish me well.